She walked upto a piece of isolated land, with nothing around her but the nature..

The dark clouds had today, covered up the bright blue sky. The gentle breeze of air had turned into a brush of rough dry air, that shook her soul and caused it to quilt up inside her.

The hue of flowers which were contrasting with the golden soil, turned their faces away from her, they seemed to change their colour as soon as this stormy weather started. She just lay flat on the grass, looking up at the clouds hurling, joining hands with each other to cover up her bright blue sky in no time.


The always-talked-about 'Silver Lining' in the clouds seemed to try hard to reach her but the clouds pushed it back and it disapperaed in just a moment.

She closed her eyes, her eyes paining because of the flickering lightening. She felt a raindrop lightly carress her face. Rolling from her forehead to her chin. Another drop of mere water, rolled from inside of her eyes and merged in the golden soil.

She opened her eyes and sat up. Her hands taking the support of the ground. The ground which she never noticed while enjoying her stroll playfully, in the past days. Her hair flowing carelessly with the wind.

She stood up and looked down the hill.

She saw her father carrying her on his shoulders. The highest place of the world for her at that time. He held her hands to make her walk, hesitated, she took her very first steps and soon ran away from him in excitement. And, he just stood there smiling.

She could see her yong-self riding on her bycycle for the first time. Scared and clumsy. Just when she was about to fall her mother gave her that extra push and support she needed. And she drove away from her laughing and carefree. And, she just stood there smiling.

She saw herself sitting on a bench under that lush green tree. Annoyed , she looked at her watch again and again, and rolled her eyes only to see her best friend rushing towards her with a bunch of flowers in his hand. She cuddled him and showed him the call letter she got from her dream company abroad. He was happy in her happiness because he did not want to see her upset face again when she got no campus recruitment in her college. She took a leave and ran towards her other friends to show them her achievement. And, he just stood there smiling.

Tears rolled down her eyes as she realised that her loved ones will always be with her no matter what the circumstances.

Soon only, the clouds vanished , revealing the bright blue sky. She gazed up at the orange sun warming her swollen eyes. The rush of air turned into the breeze again and the flowers smiled at her again.

She wiped her face with her delicate hands and went running down to the hill to her home, which was shining like a crystal, separate from every other house she could look at, making a special place in her eyes. She ran down the hill, her hair flowing carefree. And the hill seemed to be just standing there-- smiling. :)

Sorry everyone!

Sorry everyone that I stopped blogging suddenly. I really don't have anything to post. But realising that it actually makes u feel great. I'm back to blogging. :D


Hey guys, what's wrong with MTV these days? The reality shows suck, and the Tickr is no more interesting too. Shows like Stripped, Stunt Mania, Rock on, don't atract me anymore. We need some real stuff like Splitsvilla's season 1, or Roadies. Thank God, Roadies Auditions are starting soon! :D Thank you Mr. Raghu, you're almost like a Santa Claus to me at this point of time. ;)


Well, talkin about television, I can't think of anything else except, the very great - "Rakhi Ka Swayamvar". Woah! Man, this girl has got brains. All through this while, I had been wondering what would be the ultimate drama on her wedding day. Would Abhishek come running right in the middle of her wedding to get her lady-love back? Or would Mica drop-in, singing 'Ae bhai..Tune.. "(Uhh, leave it)

I even thought maybe this oh-so-sentimental girl breaks down and wails and cries for her family or some other crap. BUT, I had never imagined a Swayamvar could end up in an engagement too. Duh! Well, I was left disappointed with no twists and turns comin our way! :(

I recently heard Rakhi dumped Ilesh (Whatever the spelling is! ) . So does that mean we have 'Rakhi ke Swayamvars' series coming soon? Lol.

And I'm listening to Coldplay's- Strawberry Swing right now. Nice song! Do listen to it once.. :) The Guitar chords of the song are awesome. And ehh.. Guitar reminds me that I've been missin my Guitar classes since more than a week. :P

Hey peepz, I recently stood 2nd in a Hindi Extempore competition. :D I wasn't supposed to look at my speech, though I was given the speech 20 minutes back. God! Dunno how Ayush managed to learn it all up! btw, Ayush is the guy who stood first. Great job Ayush! Cheers! :D

I don't mind standing second. After all I delivered the speech so well, anybody would have been convinced. ;) Thank you Akanksha for framing my and Diksha's points so nicely. :) Cheers to us! :D Thanks Diksha for being there. :)

And yah, I hate that Arian Chic in What's Your Rashee. X-( But anyway, she's naive atleast, like all Arians are. *batting eyelashes* ;)

And life's getting boring now. Dunno why.. Everythin seems to be in a shade of grey now. :-| All's sooo borrrrriiinnnggg..!!! No wonder I sleep for more than 5 hours during the day.. ZZzzz..

My cel fone n I-pod have become my life.. I spend max time wid dem.. My cel is more like my boyfriend. Lol.. ;)

And I think this much is enough for now. I'll surely post something soon. And yah, something sensible for sure.:P

Till then, Take good care of yourself ! Keep visiting my blog. Peace out! :D

Kaminey Review (My First Attempt At Reviewing. Hope You Like It..)

Well, I recently saw Kaminey.

Kaminey is a nice movie. Different from common mainstream films.


Storyline: Kaminey is about Guddu and Charlie (Shahid Kapoor in double roles). The two are twins and while one suffers from aspeech disorder ("main "sa" ko "fa" bolta hun.." remember?), the other stammers("ab kahan gai tumhari ss..ss..sscience..Home Science.."). The brothers hate each other, until they bump into each other, one night due to breathtaking circumstances.. In a battle of survival surrounded by money, drugs and violence.. the two realize they have no one except each other..

Why you must must must watch it :

#1. The flawless execution of a story full of twists and turns, and the perfect choice of roles make Kaminey a must watch for sure. I don't think anybody else could have played Guddu and Charlie's role better than Shahid. And for all those of you who think Shahid copies SRK, you should definitely see it to realize that not even SRK could have played this role so finely.

#2. The music is awesome. Dhan-Te-Nan steals away all the attention. The background music makes the action scenes even more effective and adds a lot of value to the film.

#3. Shahid's acting skills have been exposed fairly. Till now, no movie has been able to provide so much scope for actors to show their acting skills. Therefore, Shahid must take away most of the awards this year. *My best wishes are with you honey. :) *

#4. Priyanka Chopra delivers her dialogs very finely. Her awesome Marathi accent being the top-notch.

In all , it's the best movie I have seen this year. Better than all those "New York" and "Kambakht Ishk" crap.

A must watch, BUT, please.. there's a request. Watch it in a theatre. Watching it on a cheap pirated DVD or VCD will only end up making your 'could-have-been-awesome' cinematic experience bad.

And by the way, watching or renting Pirated VCDs and DVDs is a criminal offense.

Just thought you'd like to know. :)

Kaminey rating: 4/5 from my side.

Peace out..

Sonakshi's Changing.. :)

This one has been written to describe the few 'impossible' kinda things I've been doing since past few days..

#1. Connecting With People:
Now this is something really strange! I mean, I hated being in a company of too many people. Being an only child and spoilt brat, I have this very bad habit of being alone most of the times. I'm so habitual to this that I don't like it even when some guests come to stay at my place. I always need my personal space, and I hate to fake smiles at the people when we meet. But since past few days I've been connecting with my good ol' cousins, with whom I had lost touch, my relatives, my neighbours.. Almost everyone! And now I actually don't think being in a company of people is that bad. :P

#2. Less Orkutting:
I was addicted. So damn addicted to Orkut. It was on my PC (ofcourse!), my cel phone, my notebooks (with about me(s) all over them).. Everywhere! But now, I've got this strange disliking towards Orkut. Don't know why. I do go online, but not on Orkut, now I've got this bad addiction to my Blog..Lol ;)

#3. Alcohol:
Ahem, no not really. I just had half a glass of beer once. Just to try. And it tasted as bad as hell. Eeu! I hated it. Don't know why people like it. Anyway, I had beer and I loved the whole experience (Though nothing happened, no boozing, nothing! ) But still, I had beer! (is that an alcohol? Uhh.. forget it..)

#4. Writing:
I've got back to my favourite hobby -- Writing! I couldn't write for almost a month or more. But now, I'm glad I'm back to it. Yay! :D

#5. No Fighting:
It's been over a month now, and I've not indulged in any fights. :D Not even with those stupid kids who are 24x7 irritating me with their cricket balls popping up right into my lawn. Urrrh.. Not even with any call centre agent. Not even with those crank callers! Woah! Strange but true .. Gosh! Have I grown up? ;)


These changes were for now. I'll write soon on something related to how I broke them or anything like that. Lol. Let's pray I don't! ;)

Luck

Luck: One word that's used as an excuse if one fails, or if someone else succeeds. Living in a world full of envious people, I've often faced situations where my success or their failure is often measured on 'LUCK'.

For example, I have a friend who scored 93% in her 10th board examination. She was not such a sincere student at school. She hated going to skool and for the days when she used to go, she was never found in her class. Always out for some or the other practice or some work or simply bunking. This girl used to be amongst the Top-3 students in her junior classes. As she grew up she got more indulged in friends and school life and got diverted away from studies. But when she reached her board class, being an ambitious girl, she realised that studying properly this year would actually help her in her future. So she started studying according to her study plan right from the begining of her session and managed to get 90+ as her result.

Ok, now let's forget about this girl and talk about something else. How many times have you found those 'good-for'nothing' ridiculous people who do nothing but try to put you down by their stupid useless remarks? Well, if I talk about myself, I'm most of the times surrounded by such people. And so is this girl, who I have mentioned above.

So, after her result, she was so very glad as it was her mother's b'day too that day, and she couldn't have given a better gift to her other than this. But, as I mentioned the 'good-for-nothing' people, they felt it was her LUCK. Screw them! The girl who worked so hard, who studied till 3 at night, her efforts were being termed as LUCK. Poor thing! That girl is still very happy for her result, becuase she knew she worked hard, and she deserved what she got. She doesn't care about what people are saying. But somewhere deep within, this thing hurts. It hurts to know that people who were already talking about her behind her back, are still not able to face her success. They're not able to accept the fact that the shy stupid girl, who never said anything , has slapped them so hard, not physically, but potentially.

Anyway, some things never change. These people belong to a special specie of mankind, which is too jealous to face their ego being ripped off in front of everyone. Lol.. Nothing new.. It has been happening since ages. Remember the Mahabharata times? Ha ha..

There's a reason why that girl never spoke up. There's a reason why that girl used to laugh off the taunts. The reason was that she knew she WILL get an opportunity to prove herself and I'm glad she did.. :)

Mind you, Luck doesn't matter, it's your hard work that really does..

Friendships Being Tested?

A lot of panic and tension had been surrounding me since the past few days. Friendships that were so strong, relations that gave birth to concrete attachments and promises that meant to stay forever, all seem to be falling apart in no time. Not purposely, but suddenly.

I was shattered when I learnt that friends that swore to stay together through thick and thin are finally going in different directions. But with time, I realised that all friendships are unique and even if they don't last forever, they all bring something to your life.

Teenage- When things change so rapidly, from raging hormones to switching subjects, there are many times when relationships are challenged.

I now believe, that it's somewhat a test put forward to us by God to keep our friendships on track during this tricky time.

So actually, this is the time when relationships are being tested. It depends on us completely how much we fight back for our result, to fail or pass.

I think friendships are like fire, a blow of air can make a small one blow out , whereas the same air can instigate a bigger one.

So if your friendship looses the charisma because of time or distance, it wasn't probably that great to hold on to, and you must better move on in different directions-No foul, No harm..! OK, so this is what I've been saying to myself all along. Hope I actually start believing on this too.

Just like I've been fighting with all the challenges of my life, I'll fight with this one too. And just like I've been wining over all my troubles in life. I know I'll triumph on this too. Wish me luck..! :)

Fairy Tales..

I really don't know how or when my view on fairy tales changed. I grew up as a naive young girl, head full of stories involving handsome princes and happy endings. I held on to the notion that a handsome prince would ride up on his big white horse and rescue me from the cold cruel world.

As I entered my teenage, my naive heart fell helplessly for any 'handsome prince' that happened to glance my way. I so desperately wanted to feel the magic of love that I convinced myself every crush was 'the one'. Although time and again my poor heart was left disappointed, I remained stubborn and determined. I was foolishly convinced that my fairytale would become true if only I kept believing.

Then,somewhere along the way, everything changed. I experienced heartbreak- the worst kind imaginable. The innocence I had held onto for so many years was suddenly snatched out from under me. The pain I felt was so strong, I wouldn't wish it on anyone, not even my worst enemy.

Suddenly, my fantasy-filled world evaporated , leaving me cold, alone and scared. This time, there was no prince to come to my rescue. There was only me and my newly damaged soul.

That's when I realised I became 'tough'. I stopped caring about everyone, most importantly myself. Somehow, my once compassionate heart became cold. Subconsciously, I wanted to hurt those around me. I lashed out at my friends, my family..everyone I loved. On the outside, I seemed careless and silent, but on the inside, I was dying. I thought it was unfair that I was in so much pain, while those around me felt 'nothing'. I was angry at others for not realising what I was going through. But how were they to know?

I kept on pushing and pushing, and eventually I pushed so hard that I snapped. Finally, I broke down and recognised what was going on inside of me. Once I faced my pain I could finally begin the healing process. Almost a year later, I am able to sit here and write this as a changed person. I've watched the deep wounds inflicted upon my soul slowly fade to scars.

As I pieced my broken heart back together. I realised how much my life has changed. I am no longer the naive dreamer I once was, nor am I the bitter damaged girl after my heartbreak. Slowly, I am regaining the ability to feel again- to love, to trust. Most importantly, I'm learning to respect and love myself again.

The pain of my past has made me a stronger person, and from that I have finally found the strength to leave the past where it belongs- in the past.

Happiness Is Our Habit...(Diksha,Ishita and Sonakshi..)

To grin at little stuff
To laugh endlessly
To smile through rough 'n tough
Yes,it's our habit, you see....

To make others smile
To laugh all along
This way we can go for miles
Yes,it's our habit, and it ain't wrong...

To sit idle, doing nothing
But then,a thought strikes our mind
And we laugh hard, on the ground, rolling
Yes, it's our habit , and we don't mind....

Laughing till tears come out
Enjoying every little bit
When together,we sing and shout
Yes, it's our habit, better accept it...

I....

I say I'm happy
I say I'm glad
I say I've not lost it
I say that I'm not sad
I say I'm over you
I say I'm all fresh
I say I'm not blue
I say not 'cause of my talkative-ness
I say I'm not in pain
And yet I only say...
I say my smile ain't in vain
And yet I only say...

I act I'm allright
I act I'm normal
I act my heart is light
I act I'm not dismal
I act to be sweet
I act to be accepted
I act I'm too neat
I act I was never dejected
I act I've never hurt myself
And yet I only act...
I act I'm proud of myself
And yet I only act..

I think I'm loud
I think I'm probably insane
I think there's nothing to be proud
I think it's all in vain
I think everyone cries
I think everyone has to part
I think those tears never dry
I think everyone has a broken heart
I think this ain't real me
And yet I only think...
I think it's time to change
But yet I only think...

Lost In This World....

Every dream that didn't come true,
Was not because I didn't try.
It was, because of these people,my foe
Who left me to do nothing but cry.


The voices told me to give up,
They made me taste defeat.
They said I could never stand up,
But,see,I'm again on my feet..!

They are the reason behind each of my mistakes,
The first cut on my wrist and that first anti-depressant pill.
They brought me down and called it fate,
But,see,I'm still alive, though you tried to kill.

They are the reason behind each and everything,
They brought me to my knees on land
They said I was nothing,
But today,I'm ahead of them just because I knew I can.

They were my first,my every first time.
The first time I fell and they didn't help me
The first time I lost track and they didn't bring me back on line,
But yet,I'm thankful,because I'm above them,and will always be...

I stumbled..

You entered my life like a gentle breeze,
Like a calm sea,like a silent dream.
You were a stranger,always at cool and at ease,
But not as happy as you seemed.

We became friends,chatting over the 'net.
Talking about formal things and casual stuff.
Like the things we love and the ones we hate,
The friendship never seemed to get tough.

Time brought us closer to each other
You guided me about bad things and new trends.
I was not as close to any other,
And so, you became my best friend.

You guided me along the path of life,
The good and the bad that came my way.
You wished for me to never strife,
And our relation grew stronger day-by-day.

We were on our straight path to nowhere
Happy with our endless journey.
Sharing silent promises of being near,
But never sharing the secret you had for me.

One day you told me you loved me,
And I was shocked to hear this..
At first when I heard, I was a little angry
But I realised your love was different from the rest.

I continued to walk along the path
Not seeing that it had stopped for you
You wanted to extend the new relation that had taken birth
But I didn't bother to see..

You supported and loved me all through
And I became dependant on your smile
You became my drug and my addiction,
I wanted to walk with you for infinite miles...

I did stumble due to fear of heights
When we were on the top view.
And I fell neither to the left nor right,
I rather fell in love with you..

You took my hand and held me close
And I knew it's gonna be forever
Because we love each other,and God loves us both
So he'll keep us together forever and ever...

We're still on that path,but a path more colourful,
I don't regret a single step that we took together,
'Cause each step has made us even more joyful,
And I know you'll be with me through every season and weather..